Monday, May 25, 2009


i was recently asked to take paternity leave in regards to leading worship. i was told to take time off to get my household in order, i did not want to take time off. my pastor told me to get used to having two kids. so off i went, though unwillingly it was. i let my pastor know this in a playful manner, but it was brought to my attention that my Savior called this grumbling and complaining. i was told that it was for my benefit to take this time and i should enjoy the blessings that will come from it. this is very difficult for me, knowing that i was made to worship our Lord and to lead that worship, i feel like a fish out of water.

a few weeks back i received a song from the Lord out of Psalm 51 but only in part. i also thought that i had received understanding of that song, but i realize that, that was also only in part. there is a part in the psalm that speaks of broken bones rejoicing. i believe that the Lord is breaking my bones and im loving it. i cant wait to see whats in store for me next.

on sunday i received the meaning of the song that the Lord had given me so many weeks earlier. obedience in all things. things that i have written of before have reared their heads once again. to be a worship leader i must be obedient, not only on the stage or in regards to the worship band but in my household, in my job, in all things. i know that i am a worship leader but am very excited to become a leader of worship in all things and to bring my kids up in the same thing.

it is my job to grow my kids up in the Vine so that they will become leaders of worship not just members of a worship band. this next step is a very exciting one and maybe ill write more about it

Thursday, January 15, 2009


I am a Worship leader. As a Worship leader the Lord has been speaking to me about True Worship. He has been saying, how as one who does not know what True Worship is can you lead My people? So i have been learning.

In Genesis Abraham was given a son Isaac, in chapter 22 the Father of all creation told him to take his son and sacrifice him on an alter. In obedience Abraham took his son Isaac up on a mountain and told his servants to wait where they were while he took Isaac to go and worship. He and his son gathered the wood for the burnt offering and built the alter of sacrifice. After this Abraham put his own son on the alter and rose the blade that would kill him, but an Angel of the Lord stopped him, and then a ram was produced for the offering.

While there are many means of Worship i believe that the umbrella form the all encompassing form of True Worship is this, obedience. Not only obedience, for even a rock goes where it was forced to. But, a joyful and willing obedience, an obedience that comes out of love and kindness shown from the Master. From the obedience that we show i believe comes an acknowledgement of that obedience. From the obedient sacrifice, Abraham was shown an Angel of the Lord who stayed his hand and was given a ram to finish the sacrifice.

At this same time the Lord revealed to me what True Worship is, my pastor tells me that we need to learn how to Worship. It is an amazing thing when the Father wants you to know something and when he wants you to take the next step in your calling. So perhaps melinda:), the time is coming for more post, more post about how to Worship and the different kinds of Worship which leads to things like Col 3:15-16 where we learn to teach and admonish not only our fellow believers but the nonbeliever with psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs.

to Him be all Glory and Power forever and ever. Amen.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

It's a Wonderful Day

today was a wonderful day in the Lord. the prayers of my brothers and sisters in Christ have been answered. today at work there was less cussing, and i had an opportunity to speak about the Lord my Savior. last night at bible study we prayed that the Lord would sustain me through my sufferings at work. He did so much more! today i had lunch with teresa about worship meetings she had me call two people about the concert. while i was at work i noticed less swearing, and i saw the office manager call out an employee for using the "f-word" and saying "gd". as the day ended i pulled out my cell phone and had a message from jeff one of the people i called for teresa. i pulled out my trusty composition notebook to take down his information and the head technician saw it and asked me if it was notes for work. i said no it's notes from the Lord, and proceeded to show him the revelations and the songs the Lord had given me to write down. he then asked if i were religious, so i replied yes and asked him if he were. he said no that he just believes that you should be the best you can be. after this it was time to leave so we said our goodbyes and left.

i had a glorious day in the Lord. He answered prayers and gave opportunities to speak of Him. it was wonderful. He opened a door and the first step in was taken, so i ask that you pray for more so that i can experience more.

to Him be all glory and power both now and forever. Amen

Wednesday, August 27, 2008


yesterday was my first day back to work, my first day back to this crooked and perverted generation. there was cursing, and there was vulgarity. i was an alien in the middle of the world. i have realized that i was called to this place. i was called to be a Light to their darkness. in the midst of this world i have been called to suffer. through suffering i will live a life worthy of Him who called me to it. as i live they will see Him through me. they will see His Light. so i work not for the "security" it provides me with, but i work for the glory of the Lord the One who provides my security. i work not to prove my loyalty to those who employ me, but to make my calling sure through Him who is loyal to me. i belong to the King. i belong to His Kingdom, and as such am a citizen in that Kingdom. my loyalties lie with Him.

so i will stand firm in Christ. i will live out loud. i will be prepared with an answer for those who question my reason for the hope i have in Him. i will gain completion of joy through suffering in the darkness of this world.

to Him be all glory and power both now and forever. Amen

Thursday, August 14, 2008


the Lord is amazing always delivering what is asked according to Him. it has only been a few days but i feel already He has been increasing my prayer. i am beginning to know what it feels like to be constantly in prayer. last night i think i woke up four or five times with things i should of been praying about. i woke up and these things were in my head. i said a prayer and quickly fell off to sleep, only to reawaken with something else on my mind that needed to be prayed about. it was wonderful. it was wonderful because i woke up this morning more refreshed then i have been in a good while.

so while i know it is only the beginning; i feel the Lord is showing me what it feels like to be constantly in prayer. it is an awesome feeling to know that i didn't get near the amount of sleep i would usually get but since i rested in Him He supplied even more than i needed.

i can't wait till He brings things to mind during the middle of the day when people will think i'm talking to myself, or which is more likely, to be talking on a bluetooth. but, after He brings things to me for both day and night then i think i should start being able to pray for things without Him having to remind me. i am excited for when i am able to pray on my own without heavenly reminders, because i think that when that happens the things He will bring to me will be things that i don't already know should be prayed for. i think they will be things like go here and pray for this person and this will happen. or go to this place and pray and wait and you will see this. i can't wait, i feel like a kid at christmas.

to Him be all glory and power both now and forever. Amen.

Monday, August 11, 2008

What I've Been Hearing

i have not received any revelation that the Lord has desired me to post here in the past few weeks. instead i will post what i have been hearing from Him.

i have recently been led to read more of His word. if His Word is my daily bread then i want to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner every day, i want to feast as much as i can. so i try to read not just every day but at least with every meal.

also, i feel i have been led to be in a state of constant prayer. the only thing is, i don't know what it feels like to be in a constant state of prayer. i see it all over the Bible but, i don't know what it feels or looks like. i see what is written of the lives of those special few that it has been credited. a life of prayer , a constant state of prayer, this is what i have been called to. i am thankful for what is written and the example that my Saviour has lived out, so that i might know what it looks like. if i imitate what it looks like then i can know what it feels like. in the future when i understand what it feels like, i will let you know.

to Him be all glory and power both now and forever. Amen.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

The Taming of the Tongue

6The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

9With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. 10Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. 11Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? 12My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.

today i read James chapter 3. the selected verses above make me wish i could not speak at all, then i wouldn't have to worry about not being able to tame my evil tongue. James 3 goes into further details about being a teacher and how teachers are held to a higher standard and how they will be held to a higher accountability for every word that is said. he says not to presume to be a teacher because of these things. i am a teacher in sorts, as a disciple of the Lord anointed by the Holy Spirit i am a teacher. i do not presume to be a teacher in the church, but as head of my household i am a teacher to aria and to lyndsey. as a worship leader called by God i am a teacher to all those under my authority in the worship team. i am a teacher. so it is unavoidable i am a teacher held to a higher standard because when i use my tongue people listen. but, how can i speak now that i've read this verse. if the tongue is a world of evil in my body set on fire by hell itself i don't want to speak. i don't want the corrupt vision of my evil world coming out instead of the praises of my Almighty. so i have decided not to speak in an attempt to tame the tongue. for if i do not speak then none can find fault in what i say.

though i wish not to speak i still write, the words will never cease to flow whether from my mouth or from my finger tips. the words come, i could just as easily write curses of my fellow brothers than i could say them. i could just as easily write songs of praise with my hands as sing them. so how then do i stop the use of my evil tongue?

James says that the tongue is untamable. Paul says that the flesh is always warring inside of you.

i must take every thought captive and make it obedient to Christ. that is the only way to win against this invincible tongue of evil. not only every thought but also every action, every thing done in the day needs to, no must be, taken captive and made obedient. we must as a whole remain in Him so that He can remain in us. by that, good will be inside of us, and how can good and evil abide together? in Mathew 12 Jesus tells this to the pharisees.

35The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. 36But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken. 37For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned."

if the tongue is untamable then how do we keep this evil from boiling up and spilling over from inside us even while we praise our Lord? we must then speak only what the Father tell us to and all other times we must remain silent. so in a sense we must become mute and our fingers become numb unable to hold even a pencil or feel the keys on the keyboard. only then will we be available to be spoken through or have our hands flow with the words of the Lord. together we should pray that our evil tongue from hell itself should be cut out, that our stone hearts where our flesh resides should be removed and replaced with the Word and a Spirit filled heart. only then will we "tame the tongue" and keep the evil inside from coming forth.