Light

yesterday was my first day back to work, my first day back to this crooked and perverted generation. there was cursing, and there was vulgarity. i was an alien in the middle of the world. i have realized that i was called to this place. i was called to be a Light to their darkness. in the midst of this world i have been called to suffer. through suffering i will live a life worthy of Him who called me to it. as i live they will see Him through me. they will see His Light. so i work not for the "security" it provides me with, but i work for the glory of the Lord the One who provides my security. i work not to prove my loyalty to those who employ me, but to make my calling sure through Him who is loyal to me. i belong to the King. i belong to His Kingdom, and as such am a citizen in that Kingdom. my loyalties lie with Him.

so i will stand firm in Christ. i will live out loud. i will be prepared with an answer for those who question my reason for the hope i have in Him. i will gain completion of joy through suffering in the darkness of this world.

to Him be all glory and power both now and forever. Amen

More

the Lord is amazing always delivering what is asked according to Him. it has only been a few days but i feel already He has been increasing my prayer. i am beginning to know what it feels like to be constantly in prayer. last night i think i woke up four or five times with things i should of been praying about. i woke up and these things were in my head. i said a prayer and quickly fell off to sleep, only to reawaken with something else on my mind that needed to be prayed about. it was wonderful. it was wonderful because i woke up this morning more refreshed then i have been in a good while.

so while i know it is only the beginning; i feel the Lord is showing me what it feels like to be constantly in prayer. it is an awesome feeling to know that i didn't get near the amount of sleep i would usually get but since i rested in Him He supplied even more than i needed.

i can't wait till He brings things to mind during the middle of the day when people will think i'm talking to myself, or which is more likely, to be talking on a bluetooth. but, after He brings things to me for both day and night then i think i should start being able to pray for things without Him having to remind me. i am excited for when i am able to pray on my own without heavenly reminders, because i think that when that happens the things He will bring to me will be things that i don't already know should be prayed for. i think they will be things like go here and pray for this person and this will happen. or go to this place and pray and wait and you will see this. i can't wait, i feel like a kid at christmas.

to Him be all glory and power both now and forever. Amen.

What I've Been Hearing

i have not received any revelation that the Lord has desired me to post here in the past few weeks. instead i will post what i have been hearing from Him.

i have recently been led to read more of His word. if His Word is my daily bread then i want to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner every day, i want to feast as much as i can. so i try to read not just every day but at least with every meal.

also, i feel i have been led to be in a state of constant prayer. the only thing is, i don't know what it feels like to be in a constant state of prayer. i see it all over the Bible but, i don't know what it feels or looks like. i see what is written of the lives of those special few that it has been credited. a life of prayer , a constant state of prayer, this is what i have been called to. i am thankful for what is written and the example that my Saviour has lived out, so that i might know what it looks like. if i imitate what it looks like then i can know what it feels like. in the future when i understand what it feels like, i will let you know.

to Him be all glory and power both now and forever. Amen.